As a therapist, I often find myself navigating the complex layers of my clients’ lives, working to untangle the web of trauma and its aftermath. In my years of practice, I have had the privilege of helping many individuals heal from deep traumatic wounds. I never planned on this, but my first job laid it in my lap, and I’ve loved every minute of it since. The hardships that I’ve seen people go through and be able to heal themselves are nothing short of impeccable. It’s almost indescribable. However, one particular case has profoundly impacted my perspective and approach: the story of an 18-year-old biracial male recently diagnosed with Autism, whom I initially treated for PTSD and trauma-related attachment symptoms. I referred him for an ADOS evaluation and looked at the report. I was glad that this assessment lent clarity but frustrated at myself that I didn’t see it sooner.

Missing the Autism Tree for the Forest of Trauma

Alex came to me with a history marked by significant trauma; he witnessed domestic violence most of his childhood, was abused by a daycare worker, and did not have any relationship with his biological father. His experiences had left him struggling with severe PTSD, anger outbursts, and disengagement from school. He had relational problems with his mother and would not often communicate.

My initial sessions were focused on addressing these urgent, debilitating symptoms — the depression and the outbursts. My training and instincts as a trauma-focused therapist kicked in, and I dedicated myself to creating a safe space for him to process and heal. We did a lot of experiential work, along with play and gaming therapy. We worked on externalizing all that had been internalized — bringing it out and releasing the frustration of not having a relationship with his father, anger towards his mother, anger towards the men who abused her, and fear. We also spent some time deepening the relationships between the sibling and mother.

However, as weeks turned into months, something nagged at the back of my mind. There were aspects of Alex’s behavior that didn’t entirely fit within the framework of PTSD. After moving through the trauma work and no longer meeting criteria for PTSD, he still did not engage in effective two-way communication with me — his answers were often short, and he remained hyper focused on his hobbies.

My focus on his trauma had been so all-encompassing because of my own hyper focusing, that I missed the autism, which in retrospect, had been masked beneath the trauma only to surface afterwards. I saw this a lot in my practice and experienced it myself. And it’s not as if I could have “treated” the autism, but perhaps I could have been more helpful had I helped Alex to better understand himself, and not pathologize himself.

It wasn't until I embarked on my own journey of self-discovery, guided by insights from other autistic providers, that the pieces began to fall into place. I realized that my training and the field’s emphasis on trauma had not adequately prepared me to see neurodivergence, especially in individuals whose trauma symptoms were so pronounced. This is a common question I get from students, “why are we not prepared for neurodivergence?” I have a few theories, but this is just where we are. We need to listen to the autistic and other neurodivergent communities, their narratives, their stories, because our research and clinical training can’t keep up. This realization was both humbling and enlightening.

My work with Alex prompted me to seek further education and collaboration with autistic and neurodivergent colleagues. Their perspectives and experiences have been invaluable in reshaping my approach to therapy. I now understand that trauma can sometimes overshadow neurodivergent traits, making them harder to recognize. This has reinforced the importance of a nuanced, multifaceted approach to therapy. I have read that some do not agree with this concept, but I have seen this over and over in my practice. I’ve also witnessed narratives of where once their ADHD is managed the autism pops its head out, surprise!

In sharing Alex’s story and my journey, I hope to encourage other therapists to broaden their perspectives, as I have mine. I have come to value the necessity of being vigilant and open to the possibility that neurodivergence might be present even in the most trauma-affected clients. By doing so, I believe that I have been able to provide more comprehensive and compassionate care. I have also come to value the importance of ongoing learning and self-reflection — not just for me but for the entire field. Alex’s story is a testament to the importance of this mindset. As a neurodivergent therapist, I hope to continue in my commitment to being informed and adaptive, ensuring that I do not miss the vital aspects of my clients’ identities and experiences. Through this commitment, I can better help my clients to heal and thrive.

Postscript

Once Alex received the autism diagnosis, the mother and I met to review what this all means for her and her almost adult child. We’ve spent a lot of time talking about transitioning into adulthood and the challenges and strengths that Alex has. This diagnosis hopefully opened the door for more supportive services, and it opened up the pathway for the mother to start examining herself in a new light. As she and I talked, she started to look at herself through a neurodivergent lens and her experiences made more sense to her. We also talked about how not knowing has impacted her and Alex’s relationship negatively in the past but now they have a new perspective on things they can connect in a different manner. They have internalized ableism within her parental expectations, which often led to highly intense conflict. But now, they see themselves as a nervous system responding within the context of each other rather than blaming one another. This opened up space for compassion, understanding, and empathy.   

Questions for Reflection and Discussion

How might you have worked with this client?

What are some of the gifts a neurodivergent therapist might bring to therapy?

In what ways might a neurodivergent therapist struggle with particular clients?  


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